Did a weekend of reading leave you wanting more?
Sneaking peeks of your newest novel from under
your desk at work?
For the eternal reader...here is your
Monday Morning Sneak Peek!
Enjoy.
AND THEN I SMILED by Dean K Miller
And Then I Smiled: Reflections of a Life Not Yet Complete finds grace in life’s simplest moments. Through poems, essays and stories, readers journey from beaches, mountain streams and city parks to destinations in realms we seldom visit, both inside and outside the physical world. Seemingly average moments of life create the backdrop for Miller’s keen observations and his thought provoking and personal essays touch on various facets of life, family, nature and the energy that surrounds us.
Hearts
I rediscovered my writing
journey and followed its path. It led to a friend for guidance and advice. She
works at a faith-based publishing company and has authored several books and
articles. We first met over a decade ago.
We had an initial meeting
to discuss my writing. After a few follow-up emails, I was set free like a
small bird taking flight into an unknown world. However, after many months on
my own, I felt it was time to return to the nest and learn again.
With her typical grace, she
found an hour to offer direction to a fledging writer. We chatted about our
lives, our kids, work . . . just catching up. Gradually our discussion turned
to writing, both hers and mine. I enjoyed listening as she described her
triumphs, as well as her struggles. She explained where she finds inspiration
and what gets in her way. She, too, has other writers she turns to for help
when she gets stuck. The circle was complete as I returned for help with my
work.
As I explained my current
project, she listened as if I might be the next Pulitzer Prize-winning author.
My questions became her quest to find the best answers. She volunteered to do
some research for me, even though I knew her spare time was limited. We
discussed my first piece more fully and she graciously offered to proof read
and edit the first draft, as well as providing feedback about any possibility
of publishing the final copy.
As we talked she mentioned
the exposure she feels when she puts her thoughts to paper, as if she is giving
away a piece of her heart. She spoke of the risk and vulnerability that writing
produces, and explained how this risk can become its own prison, preventing her
from sharing her words, and herself. When I gave her the flash drive that
contained my first manuscript, she said I was giving her a piece of my heart.
That was particularly true,
given the content of that first draft. However, I no longer fear sharing my
heart. I have learned that if you are afraid to share your heart, you become
afraid to love and afraid to live. This I will not do.
Instead, I choose to expose
my heart to reap the rewards in the smile of a stranger who may read my words
and become a friend.
Moments of a Journey
I’ve journeyed through life, noticing and
forgetting, teaching and learning, breathing in and out. I am not lost; so, I
cannot be found. A chapter in a just-finished book is titled “Chambered
Nautilus.” Two days after reading that chapter, I drove past a tree stump
carved into an ocean scene, the curved and segmented form of a large, chambered
nautilus shell most prominent street side. For me, tranquility always involves
water, and often my thoughts return to the ocean.
Tonight’s
heavy rain will soon change into snow. Already I miss its random beat on my
bedroom window. Soon the river will flow wildly, as snowmelt and spring run-off
churn through the Big Thompson Canyon. Until the river calms, Leaky Boat Lake
is my fishing haven and I
return to catching largemouth bass. When I am alone on that small lake, the
water seeping through a pin-hole in the boat’s bow, I am taken back to when I
fished with my youngest daughter in that same leaky boat. She held each fish she
caught by its lower lip while I captured the memory on camera. Releasing the
fish, she’d laugh when it would flip its tail, splashing cold water on her
face. Further back in my memory, I sit with my brother and his son in their
boat on a river in Washington.
I watch the interaction of father and
son, noticing only subtle differences compared to mine with my three daughters.
Our parents taught us well. Still deeper in my memory, I am racing upriver with
my father as he deftly guides the wooden craft around logs and gravel bars. We
stop to fish, and more often than not, find success. He is a master at the art
of fishing and I wonder if I’ll ever possess that much knowledge about
anything. Beyond that recollection a younger me, wading with my brothers while
we fished the small, icy cold rivers fed by the snow fields of Mt. Hood in
Oregon. We knew a freedom without bounds—a freedom like one that allows a rock
to skip endlessly across a pond.
This evening’s moisture began its journey
in the Gulf of Mexico. It gave birth to the clouds over the mountains and now
cleanses the air, the land, and my thoughts. Should not the rain have the taste
of salt, since it was brought from the sea? In the sea and along its shores, I
have journeyed far: Hawaii, Oregon, California, Mexico, Florida, New Jersey,
Canada, Washington, St. Thomas, St. Lucia. The water was always salty,
sometimes calm, sometimes violent, yet always calling to my soul. Riding its
waves I have experienced joy as unbinding as is possible, and faced my fears
over and over again. Now the river and a small pond hold my humanity in loving
care. Their waters will someday reach the sea; in their journey, they will
transport a piece of me.
I am alive, and so my passage on this
planet is not complete. My wistful memories typed out on keyboard and computer
brings “back to now” the moments gone before. They are happening with each step
I take.
In an email a friend asked of my memories
after sharing one of his own. This is what I’ll send to him: “I am lying in the
sun amidst a field of green and gold, dreaming of the ocean, knowing I am home
. . . and I am smiling.”
~ A Second Day of
Gray ~
A second day of
gray.
More rain; more solitude.
My senses are soaking up
what the droplets offer
nearly as fast as the thirsty ground.
Standing outside in the deluge
it’s another chance to look within.
Now the rain; a steady beat on my face–
A welcome respite
a chance to learn, to wash away the fear.
To join the flowers of spring
planting our roots deep
in the softened soil.
More rain; more solitude.
My senses are soaking up
what the droplets offer
nearly as fast as the thirsty ground.
Standing outside in the deluge
it’s another chance to look within.
Now the rain; a steady beat on my face–
A welcome respite
a chance to learn, to wash away the fear.
To join the flowers of spring
planting our roots deep
in the softened soil.
That is where we
find our strength
the flowers and I;
to express ourselves on the next sunny day,
with confidence, beauty and grace.
Welcoming all who seek
what they think we may hide.
Only to find we truly are
what we appear—
And so much more.
the flowers and I;
to express ourselves on the next sunny day,
with confidence, beauty and grace.
Welcoming all who seek
what they think we may hide.
Only to find we truly are
what we appear—
And so much more.